All my posts on this blog will appear at the perfect time...for people on the east coast. Even more perfect for all my old friends from England!
At some point during the tedious process of picking the perfect font for my blog's name, "insomnia" started looking like it wasn't a real word. Do you ever experience that problem? You're either punch drunk, or have just written the word so many times that it doesn't look like it's in english anymore.
Fascinating so far, right?
What do you use to try to sleep? I use liquid melatonin (2 drops under the tongue) and ZzzQuil (which is really just Benadryl). I used to take half a Benadryl to sleep and would be out like a light in 15 minutes. Now it takes the 50ml of diphenhydramine to knock me out. In all fairness, I probably could sleep right now if I wanted to, but I'm so excited these days (because my life seems to be getting to the perfect place at which I have aspired to be for so long, not even knowing what that meant until it happened) that I stay up in an effort to spend more time reflecting. Sure, I have to wake up later to compensate (now that I'm 31 I really shouldn't be burning the proverbial candle at both ends) but I much prefer the kind of mellow, introspective energy I have in the wee small hours of the morning rather that how I feel in the (real) morning.
I'm so tired right now that I keep thinking I can see inanimate objects magically moving in my peripheral vision. The only time it's actual movement is when our 5lb terrier mix, Honey, crawls to the edge of the bed to look down at me stretched out on the floor with an expression on her face that could only mean she thinks I'm insane. She's not wrong- but I'm now thankfully on medication that handles it. Hey, if I'm not going to mention personal things then what is the point of this blog? Well, this type of blog. I am not sure if anyone will ever come on to read the late night (boring?) ramblings of a sleepy girl, but you never know. Even if nobody reads this, the process of having a one-way conversation with my laptop is oddly cathartic.
I want to write more, but this is one of the few nights when I really should listen to the part of my body begging me to sleep as my fiancé and I are doing our engagement shoot tomorrow! I'm so excited!! In this particular case I guess I'm still awake because I'm as excited as a puppy whose owner just snuck them bacon, but I'm not going to look too swift if I have suitcases under my eyes ("bags" doesn't do them justice).
I just heard a line on the show "Shameless" (which I _love_ and am watching with cordless headphones so as not to wake my fiancé) talking about a dying nun who is addicted to playing Angry Birds. Seriously-- how rich are those guys?! I wonder if there's room for a Happy Penguins. Sounds like it could be fun, right? However, i can't figure out how to keep a plant alive, let alone develop a video game.
Okay, so like I said two paragraphs ago, I should sleep so it doesn't look like my fiancé is marrying someone who was just dug up. We really left this shoot late- we're getting married in a month! Oh well, better late than never. It took a long time to be able to schedule it due to multiple variables I will mention in future posts.
Goodnight, fellow insomniacs! Good morning, east coasters!
xo
