Downward Spiral?

So much for things being better. I have slipped back into the sludge that is depression. I can't get excited about anything, I feel absolutely miserable: it's awful. Lexapro can take anywhere from 2 to 3 months to start working properly. I have been on it for less than a month and am desperately hoping that this is merely evidence that it is not yet working and not a sign of things to come. It's awful: I just don't know how else to put it.

About a week ago I had a blood test to check my thyroid to see if it may be partially responsible for my complete lack of energy. As it turns out, my thyroid is not currently doing a great job at producing one of two hormones, so it is partially (wholly?) to blame for my constant exhaustion. I am now taking thyroid medication once a day, which should take about 4-6 weeks to kick in. Thus far: no joy. I still can't really drive myself anywhere. About a week ago I just tried driving to the pharmacy and I fell asleep behind the wheel at an intersection, which was terrifying. Unless poor Craig is up for driving me (and he has been extremely busy with work) I'm basically house bound at the moment. For a normal person that would mean the place is sparkling and beautiful, but for a depressed person it means no such thing. It takes a _massive_ effort to do anything: shower, put on makeup, do dishes, do laundry, etc.

I'm so sad it hurts. I want my life back so badly. I really, really hope that the Lexapro is the right thing to be on, and that in 2 or 3 months I'm not just going to be in the same place and have to start the whole thing over with another medication.